Sometimes.. I don't know.. I just feel lost. Have no idea how, why or when does it start, but that's it. Like pinball in hole sounds "ping" and I don't feel like I fit here anymore. Or somewhere else. Like... Just nowhere. I feel like lonely man, who is lost in the desert. No, it is worse, because I am not in the desert. I am lonely man lost in the crowd. Maybe just room is full and I don't have enough space to get in there.
And then I start thinking - who the hell am I? Is my life now worth living? Are friendships permanent? Will I find my way in life? The only road, where I am meant to be. I've been searching for it, but it's just lost. Like me.

*Waiting for another "ping", who'll bring me back to normal life